Labels: (:, adolescence, awesomeness, floorball, frontliners, nostalgia

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#1.

mh: so, this time how did you do in your exam?
tristan: i got first in class from last in class you know. 
me: WAHH. congratulations weii!  
mh: wahh, i cannot believe. hahaha. later go tell skola cina and see his reaction. then you'll get to see his cute face.  hahaha. 

...

mh; eh you know ar. this joker here got first in class you know! from last in class.  :D
ky: wahh. really ar??  congrats weii. *shakes tristan's hand then salutes*  cannot believe. hahaha.  
*mh and zoe look on*
suddenly, ky does... this:

no, actually more lala than that.  

mh, me & darien:   HAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH!!!
mh: see? told you can see his cute face.  xD

#2.

*discussion going on. everybody giving opinions on the subject*

mh: eh mikey ah, you know what we're talking about meh? 
mikey: nope.
mh: then how you give all the suggestions la?
mikey: i just listen then try and give la.
me: LOL!

#3.

mh: if he becomes our future prime minister ar, he'll be the shortest prime minister you know.
ky: yeah lo. when he speak on stage, cannot see anybody speaking wan.  only can hear voice. he need to stand on stool.  xD
mikey:  T_T

#4.

*'love the way you lie' plays*

ky:  i only like this song from her. i like this part very much.
mikey: what? you mean the chorus izit?  you don't like the rap part hor?
ky: yeah. her vocals super good lah.
mikey: aiyahh. her voice all edited wan lah.
me: NOLAA. tsk.

more like michael gets pwned day. lol

life.  it has it's ups and downs.

Labels: :D, adolescence, awesomeness, floorball, friends, frontliners, fun, funny, glad, lovess, people, randomness

wahh stress.  exams on wednesday, thursday and friday.

KFSPP on saturday.  hols start on the 4th too.  

our guys team bee-jay bahaya got fourth placing in KFSPP. lost to hamid khan thunderboltz.  

SXI lunatics lost to pfs in the finals.  super super sad. both in penalties weii.  

Labels: adolescence, bee-jay, challenges, disappointed, floorball, sad, school, tough

suddenly.  i have writer's block.  don't know what to write about. hm.  

they say everyone's beautiful in their own way.  i  believe it's true.  caus ei believe God created everyone specially.  Amen?

yes i don't feel all that beautiful.  well, right now at least.

been busy lately. very. every week seems like there's something on. every week seems hectic.  
si ka beh si liau le. 

oh wells.  signing off now.  

choir practise, floorball training, prefect's meeting, national day celebration, kfspp .. EXAMS.  darnit.

Labels: adolescence, busy, challenges, stress, stuff

I just realised how depressed I am.  

 ; Just figured out i can't make it for Penang Bridge Marathon this year.
   going off somewhere.  Sad weih.

 ; Exams are near. Haven't revised a single thing.

 ; Afraid I can't perform or contribute to the team during KFSPP.  
   which is two weeks away. DARN.

 ; I just realised I sing baddd. lol

 ; I've been treating some people terribly these few days.  

 ; I haven't putting God first in my life.  : Hypocrite.

 ; Not carrying out my responsibilties as i should.

 ; I HATE THAT TUMMY.  D:<

A tough cookie I am not.  I lost it somehow. 

Labels: adolescence, blah, busy, challenges, depression, disappointed, frustration, help, stress, sustain

This week has been hectic. So many things have happened.  SI (die).

St. John's.

Prefects 2010 / 2011.

Just when I thought I could take everything off and put all this aside,

I lay it all down to take it up again.. 

This time with bigger and greater responsibility.  

Tough?  

And just when I was wondering what my week was all about, Jeff put forth the question off service.  Service to the LORD. What is my role?  

-Still thinking. 

I have YOUR strength with me.

Wah, down.

Labels: adolescence, challenges, frustration, God, growing up, help, look up, sustain

Finally.

Now that i am, and have proven to myself that it's not impossible, next target..  60

50.  :D  mom was like, please la no way. pfft, can la.  xD  woots.

*All this is done just to remind myself that i don't care what others say, that i don't care about their opinions regarding my outer appearence.  Cause i'll guard my weight as i like.  I'll go even to 60.  Bah,

Who are you to tell me that i should lose weight and all?  BOO.  
*coughboeycough*

ANYWAYS, these few weeks have been pretty taxing. Percy Jackson series  (Y) 

Oh and WK, no way am i gonna go to 45kg. LOL
Please don't crap here about beauty pageants ah.  I'd rather go kait a fly.  :P
They're so not my style.  xD

People make you or break you.
But they shouldn't.

Labels: :D, adolescence, funny, i don't care, lol, randomness, stress, stuff

Suddenly, I don't feel like it anymore.  

Pretending it never happened.  Like how you do it best.

Get outta ma mind.

ONE more day.

Pray for what God has impressed on your heart.  

Phoenix.

Labels: adolescence, depression, emo

for a moment i thought i was there already.

but i've come to realise, that it's never that easy.  i probably will never get there.  
cliche as it is, it's not about how fast you get there,  it's about the journey there.

as it hits me, i figure out that that's not the most important thing in life. gotta live for things more worth it.  FOCUS.  :)  

on a different note, i miss floorball.  darn.  

koperal zoe, coming thru!  :D

they will come when it's time.
of add maths and office hours, the hols were not bad-lah.

Labels: adolescence, challenges, confused, random

i am depressed. very. confused. super.  at some point i just felt like dying. but then i quickly scraped that thought away. LOL

i don't know. i feel it will end soon.  not the way i would've wanted. i've been so selfish all this while.  it's harder than i think.  i look at it now and envy them.  crap. i am sooo depressed. 

advising you guys. was so easy.  but now that i've come to the actual situation, i just screwed everything up.  what is this.  ZOE.  you-are-dead-meat.

I miss floorball already.

Labels: adolescence, blah, challenges, crap, depression, disappointed, emo, frustrated, stress

I was afraid of failure.  

That's why I didn't do the SPIN-OFF.Until I
was forced to.

SORRYYY.  I am so weak.  ish.

i suck. 

Labels: adolescence, depression, disappointed, floorball, frustrated, HEH., sorry

kew:  " you were very quiet that day. "

zoe:  " so.. really? i was thinking mah. "

kew:  *grins and smiles*  " yalah. you normally talk ALOT mah. "

zoe:  " yeah i normally talk alot. cannot think and talk mah.  *pauses and gasps*  so that means i don't think when i talk.  (which means i don think most of the time. since i talk alot)    xD  "

kew:  *LOL*

ah pei li. she thinks i crap alot.  uh, which i do.  :D

moving on...  i have been going to 4 arif for three weeks. or so. and yeah, there's pain. duh. it's obviously not what i would have wanted, not going my way. and that makes me down so much of the time.

but you know what? it's all going away. God has helped. alot. i've learned to be more hardworking. xD  ( i actually do homework nowadays.)  i've learnt to enjoy nureen and nina more. before they leave. i still talk to hari like the good times.

what worries me is when nina and nureen are gone. i guess i could mix with the girls and all, but it wouldnt be the same. i'd feel unwanted. not-in-the-gang. it's just, they have their stuff to talk about. and like, i'm not part of the gang. hey, obviously, you don't want some girl barging in your privacy just coz her friends left for boarding school right?

not that i don't talk to them now, but it's just not the same anymore. i wish eulene and the form fives were in my form. :(

okay. so for those title readers, you be wondering what it's all about. i've sort of pondered. last year, it was fun, thrilling, full of ups and downs. the time i spent with that somebody, it was satisfying. but i never really questioned myself, what would happen when it all ends?

it's all coming now, and i can feel it. distance. barriers. we don't even talk anymore. it's like he never cared. never cares. HAH. i know, my fault for getting involved. the pain and hurt after the joy. i don't want that anymore. not after another broken relationship. i've experienced enough of those. and yes, being the long-winded me. i've FINALLY come to my conclusion.

6 months. 

yup, i can do that for six months. i'm not gonna get my feelings involved. no BGR for that period of time. EASY, no?  hahah. at least 6 months is my goal lah. it'll save me from heartache, wasting time and energy and i can concentrate on homework. xD  (homework has got to be my favourite thing to do now)  :D

now you may say, aiyah. six months only wad, it's not like u get a boy knocking at your door everyday begging you to be his gf right?  WRONG. lol. what i mean is not liking anybody, eros way. not even thinking about getting involved.  girls spend way too much time on this. at least i did?   x]

so that's it. my resolution for the time being. SIX months whole. no lovey-dovey. i doubt i'll live to regret it.  =)

i have school tomorrow.  :O   tuesday floorball training with miss kew. weds maybe floorball training for seniors. and friday, for the juniors. i have syahbandar on wednesdayyy.  :(   i don't like house practice. hahah.

i love yoghurt.  PEACH and MANGO flavour. strawberry is getting too common.

none but Jesus ; brooke fraser.

Labels: adolescence, floorball, funny, growing up, love, school, stuff, unlabelled

it's amazing how much a guy can change because of one girl.

it's shocking how much a person can change in one year. 

it's awesome how much a person can be changed because of the knowledge of God.

it's wonderful how much a perosn can change thanks to something seemingly insignificant a friend said.

Changes. people change. alot. from time to time. for the better or for the worse.

Changes like these make you think and wonder and ask questions like, " How?" and " Why?" and " When?"
They get me thinking. having people ask you to change or not to change.  it puzzles me sometimes. 

Some people just do 180's. like, TOTAL MAKEOVERS. the nice friendly dude you once knew just turned his back on you. as if he never knew you.

the innocent nerd who once didn't make any difference now makes all the difference to you.  weird, no?  

some people just DO.

Labels: adolescence, change, confused, growing up, people, wondering

" my best friend's a total jerk. "

that's what she's probably thinking right now. heh.  i'm sorry.

u wanna be mad about it okay fine. it was my fault anyway.

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