Labels: disappointed, floorball, sad
wahh stress. exams on wednesday, thursday and friday.
KFSPP on saturday. hols start on the 4th too.
our guys team bee-jay bahaya got fourth placing in KFSPP. lost to hamid khan thunderboltz.
SXI lunatics lost to pfs in the finals. super super sad. both in penalties weii.
Labels: adolescence, bee-jay, challenges, disappointed, floorball, sad, school, tough
I just realised how depressed I am.
; Just figured out i can't make it for Penang Bridge Marathon this year.
going off somewhere. Sad weih.
; Exams are near. Haven't revised a single thing.
; Afraid I can't perform or contribute to the team during KFSPP.
which is two weeks away. DARN.
; I just realised I sing baddd. lol
; I've been treating some people terribly these few days.
; I haven't putting God first in my life. : Hypocrite.
; Not carrying out my responsibilties as i should.
; I HATE THAT TUMMY. D:<
A tough cookie I am not. I lost it somehow.
Labels: adolescence, blah, busy, challenges, depression, disappointed, frustration, help, stress, sustain
I wonder if telling someone you miss them over and over again annoys them. HM.
I miss frontliners. WOO.
Percy's my boyfriend. LOL. why? cause i'm Annabeth. HAHA. No i am NOT Thalia (somebody called me that). She punk. I no like. lol
Grover is funnay. hehehe. And a black. o.o I didn't know that till yesterday. xD
I always thought he was a white. Like one of those whimpey kids at school. Guess i was wrong?
Sayang, thanks for being there yesterday. :)
Thanks guys from school. The support from you all this time has been highly appreciated, even though we didn't win.
Life goes on.
Labels: :) hepi, challenges, disappointed, people, thanks
i am depressed. very. confused. super. at some point i just felt like dying. but then i quickly scraped that thought away. LOL
i don't know. i feel it will end soon. not the way i would've wanted. i've been so selfish all this while. it's harder than i think. i look at it now and envy them. crap. i am sooo depressed.
advising you guys. was so easy. but now that i've come to the actual situation, i just screwed everything up. what is this. ZOE. you-are-dead-meat.
I miss floorball already.
Labels: adolescence, blah, challenges, crap, depression, disappointed, emo, frustrated, stress
I was afraid of failure.
That's why I didn't do the SPIN-OFF.Until I
was forced to.
SORRYYY. I am so weak. ish.
i suck.
Labels: adolescence, depression, disappointed, floorball, frustrated, HEH., sorry
I finally have to face it. sooner or later. i pick now.
the big question is ..
IS floorball taking me away from God? and my studies?
it's so hard to bring yourself to acknowledge that something so huge in your life is finally taking its toll on you.
since the time i first got introduced to floorball, it's been close to half a year. i don't know, i somehow didn't really have a flair for floorball neither did i have a liking for it immediately. slowly, after constant urging from pei li and aso, i finally made it. 27th february was my first frontliners training. it was awesome.
sure. i love 300 with all my heart. that i cannot deny. i love the little kids. their like family. but .. the sport? i feel so guilty saying this but, 1). i don't htink i'll go far. 2). i've tonned down so much. not an advantage no more. 3). it's tkaing me away from the most important things in one's life.
if ever anything replaces my main love, or becomes top priority apart from God, then that thing has to go. i say this not because i live it, because i know it's the right thing to do. i'm not righteous, i don't have a clean record, nor am i perfect. but the matter of fact is, God comes first. when i die, it's not floorball i'm gonna take with me. that's not what's gonna get me to heaven.
truly guilty now. HONEST. kuan yang, if you happen to read this. i know, my bad. i don't know. i guess it was pressure? i'm sorryyyy. i need time ot sort stuff out. might be taking a break from floorball to get my priorities straight.
this stinks. floorball was the main thing i had, considering i don't have a boyf and all.
but right, I DON'T KNOW NOW. geez i failed. blah.
gotta take a breather. set things right. if i don't have floorball, honestly speaking, i won't die. i won't go to hell. but if i don't have God, my creator, how can i live a single day?
dilemma-ed. gone. exams coming. psshttt. DIE.
Labels: confused, depression, disappointed, emo, faith, floorball, frustration, God, sad
" my best friend's a total jerk. "
that's what she's probably thinking right now. heh. i'm sorry.
u wanna be mad about it okay fine. it was my fault anyway.
Labels: adolescence, disappointed, emo, frustrated, mad, sad
i have no mood now. i don't love anybody now. nobody's fault.
i hate it like this. grr.
Labels: adolescence, crap, depression, disappointed, emo
I have no cookies or hugs. So don't like me. What a great way to end 2009.
Labels: crap, depression, disappointed, emo, frustrated, HEH., stuff, you.
i just. ugh. i don't get it. WHY? hurt. pfft. shh..
Labels: confused, crap, disappointed, emo
#50..
meh. Kris Allen's new song with The Script is cool. :D 'live like we're dying'. yes blame me, i just heard it. i am officially emo. but who cares? heh.
yes, it is my 50th post for this blog. what have I achieved? am I pleasing GOD? i think not. *sigh* GOD, help me, please.
yeah. i should be studying now, but what? i am on the net. yes i am. shoot. grr.
i'm hurt pfft. some friends I have. Sureee. yes, it's your fault, Jeff. haha.
Zoe ish a random-chubby-irritating/annoying-whiny-careless-lame-tub of lard-ish-PIG. yes. and i don't care.
yesss, i can go on saturday for the GLO graduation thingy. hope to see the loves people.
'til whenever.
Labels: depression, disappointed, emo, frustrated, HEH., pfft
14th september..
so yes. kay elle was, fun. xD thank you deborah lor the awesome. :D ahaha. like totally rocked with you. cousins. mm, the love. awwwh, will be missing you kids so much. thanks aunt and uncle. my aunt's house is like, the bomb weih. super... WHITE. xD haha.
nyee has got ear holes!!! ahh. as in like, for earings. woooooo. first thing when i saw i was like, "nyee u pierced ur ears!!!.." and the first thing she said? "dont touch.. *walks away " okay. nvm skip it. xD awesome, hun, u look more feminine now. and she was like, "go pierce ur ears lah.." yeah. imma pierce them. aftr peeemare. not just yet. :D
pecutan was LAME in the beginning. then now fun!! haha. sitting with pak and nyee. uber crazy/randomness..
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15th september..
she looked GORGEOUS. absolutely gorgeous. haha. today went to skul. was blurring. then suddenly i saw her. LOL. she was saying sumthing like " yalah, the first thing he said was, nice shoes. look at the face lah, not the legs! hahaha.." and i went oohh, NICE SHOES. xD haha. another one. but seriously, i was stunned. wad with her pierced ears, the earings, the fair legs, short skirt xD and the WHITE sandals. i went staring for a few momments. ;) no i'm not les mind you. and no, i'm not exaggerating. u guys shud've been there. u MISSED it dude. :D hahaha..
so yes, enuf about gorgeous gurl today. :D i'm missing KAY ELLE now. =( awwh..
kiekieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. yes yes, a sexay anything. wadever you say. xD SHE WOLF. lol.
me and jeff okay de lah. ish. and stephen oso. haha. aish..
pecutan was well, LAME. sheesh kena change to the back. and then wad? when got empty space in front, THEY got asked to shift place. and i'm like, WAD? that was my old place lah. hehh. wadever lah. sum kind of kawans. pfft. so yesh, today i had camy next to me, and preetem behind me. quite fun lah i guess.wad witht their football bets. hari, dar and the gang on my left. xD uber fun. haha. MATHS was just just justtt.. HIGH. :D look on the bright side zoe, u're a number of spaces nearer to him. you can cope. no biggie.. hmm..
deborah lor. i.miss.you. sheesh. NOVEMBER. don't worry. xD hahaha..
i like chocolate chip bread. it's nice. :D
meng meng is getting mad with me now. =( aiyoh. GONE.
pu vern's leaving sooonnnn.. T.T haha.. my dear, we've only been up to DAY 7 or 8. and i havent done my best for you yet. haha. for those who don't know, go watch FIREPROOF. xD i'm doing the 40 day course thingie to pu vern. why? coz i love him. hahaha. we crack up thinking abt it. aish.. love you pu. no matter how many times you give me witty retorts and rude comebacks. like this: pu vern ; me
"well hello there toilet bowl licker.."
"sheesh.."
"you shud've said: 'owh yes, i'm fine. i lick toilet bowls like YOU lah..' "
*dot dot dot* seriously, that dude's comebacks are funny. haha. i rmb the captainball 'who is taller?' joke too. :D owh pu, i'll miss you LOADS.
corn and butter with salt. one word: YUMMY.
so yes, itu saja untuk kali ini, terima kasih kerana membaca.
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