"Old people at weddings always poke me and say "You're next." So, I started doing the same thing to them at funerals." ROFLOL.
Tried taking a moon shot that day. Turned out not too bad. :)
Inspiration: Bruno Mars.
I am currently occupied. Verreyh bussay. LOL
Finished BM folio. D:
CNY next week! :)
Labels: :/, depression, stress
Labels: emo, miss, sad, stress, you.
i totally messed up my add maths and bio papers. and, tomorrow there's physics, chem and bm. oh shucks.
watching your favourite (well duhh) awesome school girl's floorball team play is not fun. it sucks big time.
on the other hand, playiing floorball in baju kurung and loose shoes.. hm, interesting, but all the same annoying.
trying to defend while kangkang-ing your legs. whoosh. not easy. xD
this saturday. i don't want it to happen so fast.
yet at the same time, i can't wait. darn.
Labels: (:, bee-jay, blah, exams, floorball, school, stress, sustain
suddenly. i have writer's block. don't know what to write about. hm.
they say everyone's beautiful in their own way. i believe it's true. caus ei believe God created everyone specially. Amen?
yes i don't feel all that beautiful. well, right now at least.
been busy lately. very. every week seems like there's something on. every week seems hectic.
si ka beh si liau le.
oh wells. signing off now.
choir practise, floorball training, prefect's meeting, national day celebration, kfspp .. EXAMS. darnit.
Labels: adolescence, busy, challenges, stress, stuff
I just realised how depressed I am.
; Just figured out i can't make it for Penang Bridge Marathon this year.
going off somewhere. Sad weih.
; Exams are near. Haven't revised a single thing.
; Afraid I can't perform or contribute to the team during KFSPP.
which is two weeks away. DARN.
; I just realised I sing baddd. lol
; I've been treating some people terribly these few days.
; I haven't putting God first in my life. : Hypocrite.
; Not carrying out my responsibilties as i should.
; I HATE THAT TUMMY. D:<
A tough cookie I am not. I lost it somehow.
Labels: adolescence, blah, busy, challenges, depression, disappointed, frustration, help, stress, sustain
Finally.
Now that i am, and have proven to myself that it's not impossible, next target.. 60
50. :D mom was like, please la no way. pfft, can la. xD woots.
*All this is done just to remind myself that i don't care what others say, that i don't care about their opinions regarding my outer appearence. Cause i'll guard my weight as i like. I'll go even to 60. Bah,
Who are you to tell me that i should lose weight and all? BOO.
*coughboeycough*
ANYWAYS, these few weeks have been pretty taxing. Percy Jackson series (Y)
Oh and WK, no way am i gonna go to 45kg. LOL
Please don't crap here about beauty pageants ah. I'd rather go kait a fly. :P
They're so not my style. xD
People make you or break you.
But they shouldn't.
Labels: :D, adolescence, funny, i don't care, lol, randomness, stress, stuff
people. the weird one needs some time to breathe. LOL
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i am depressed. very. confused. super. at some point i just felt like dying. but then i quickly scraped that thought away. LOL
i don't know. i feel it will end soon. not the way i would've wanted. i've been so selfish all this while. it's harder than i think. i look at it now and envy them. crap. i am sooo depressed.
advising you guys. was so easy. but now that i've come to the actual situation, i just screwed everything up. what is this. ZOE. you-are-dead-meat.
I miss floorball already.
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.. i messed up my mid-year exam papers. blehh.
.. i got to know new people.
- i love NATASHA NEOH my squishy love. :D she is like the sister i never had. ahah. and we bully each other. WE ROCK. you amuse meeeee. *sayangs.
- DON SHAKIR the don. lol. DRAGON DON. the ever random dude that never fails to cheer me up. *knees.
- SOMEONE. i don't know. but i love you. =)
.. i lost my memory cards. so i'm starved of using the camera. o.o can die weih. i miss vaining. xD
.. i got alot of cool stuff. lame but cool. i wish i could post it up here.
... i felt like playing floorball. no, actually that one everyday. not just recently. LOL
.. i am gonna go on a strict diet. again. blahh.
burnt out.
Labels: busy, confused, exams, friends, love, lovess, people, random, stress, tired
Blessed belated new year? *grins sheepishly*
yeah yeah.. i know lah abit very late. been busy mah. :P
so i'm a year older already. that's what january babies get. aww sad, no? we grow old so fast. *shakes head in disapproval* TSK.
i did get alot of birthday wishes though. x]
THANK YOU to those who remembered. :D presents?
the first week of school was FUN. it was. orientation with the form ones was exciting, tiring and challenging. :) but still FUN. xD
so i sorta kicked of the year with:-
- prefects.
- vice pres. of st. john's.
- secretary of music club.
- ajk for floorball.
no i'm not bragging. it's alot of work seriously.
owh, and not forgetting, a whole lot of stress from and FLOORBALL. xD
i had talks with jason and pei li. frontliners it is. i don't know how many times i've said that, but this time's for real. =]
CF. first meeting of the year's tomorrow. God bless the meeting i pray. (:
honestly, my walk with God at just the beginning of the year hasn't been what i would have wanted. the fire keeps growing so dim at times and i start to wonder, what kind of christian am i if i'm not spending time with my creator?
ming hwee asked me the question, " do i have a heart for souls? "
i hesitated before answering. do i really have a heart for souls?
maybe i do. on the surface. thinking about it all, it's opened my eyes. looking at some of my best friends, spending such wonderful momments with them. isn't this what i want in heaven? aren't these the people that mean so much to me? wouldn't i want the best for them? would i want to see them suffer next time? for eternity?
the answer is no. i want my grandparents saved. my bestfriends. even people i don't know. sometimes, my heart aches when i see peole who claim to be christians not living the way they should. and i don't have the right to judge, but i question their salvation sometimes. i really do.
having said that, i check myself. wadabout me? am i living the way i ought to? as a free person not under the bondage of sin anymore? is this liberty too much for me to handle?
"my chains are gone. i've been set free. my God my saviour, has ransomed me.
and like a flood, His mercy rains, unending love, amazing grace. "
so what is my response to this great love? this agape love?
i'm trying slowly, to change. to spend time with God. to listen to Him.
- work has been piling up. homework that is. x] ahh!
a few things i dislike.
- the top part of the floorball stick coming off when you play. annoying weih. xD
- getting demoralised by pei. thanks to my big mouth. (:
- having no mood to play floorball or captainball. like NO WAY. :O yes, it does happen.
i just discovered that i'm best at midfielding. for most games. i'm normally centre or midfield. not usually forward. (defending is a nono because i'm too short. xD )
yeah. 'cuz i can't score. hahah. i mean, i shoot direct balls. and being short is not an advantage when i score that way. they prefer lob balls. which, i'm terrible at.
why? coz i hate lobbing balls. xD partly cuz i can't. haha. they just too slow for me. =D direct balls - my best play.
yes, excuses. x)
okay, enough about games. xD
i have stuff to post, recent one-liners i had. shall post them up another day. BAHAH. you know i never seem to be able to post what i say i will. :D
school tomorrow! cf & floorball! and chem, bio, physics and add maths on the same day. HOW COOL IS THAT?
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