i totally messed up my add maths and bio papers. and, tomorrow there's physics, chem and bm. oh shucks.
watching your favourite (well duhh) awesome school girl's floorball team play is not fun. it sucks big time.
on the other hand, playiing floorball in baju kurung and loose shoes.. hm, interesting, but all the same annoying.
trying to defend while kangkang-ing your legs. whoosh. not easy. xD
this saturday. i don't want it to happen so fast.
yet at the same time, i can't wait. darn.
Labels: (:, bee-jay, blah, exams, floorball, school, stress, sustain
I just realised how depressed I am.
; Just figured out i can't make it for Penang Bridge Marathon this year.
going off somewhere. Sad weih.
; Exams are near. Haven't revised a single thing.
; Afraid I can't perform or contribute to the team during KFSPP.
which is two weeks away. DARN.
; I just realised I sing baddd. lol
; I've been treating some people terribly these few days.
; I haven't putting God first in my life. : Hypocrite.
; Not carrying out my responsibilties as i should.
; I HATE THAT TUMMY. D:<
A tough cookie I am not. I lost it somehow.
Labels: adolescence, blah, busy, challenges, depression, disappointed, frustration, help, stress, sustain
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
As your lies crumble down, a new life she has found."
It's still there.
Labels: blah, emo, song, tough
I want people who stop by here to actually be encouraged after they read my posts. that was the main purpose from the beginning. But all i think i've brought is sadness, misery and more depression.
Was looking back a some old posts. was close to tears yet again. Nevermindforgetit.
Me and my heart we got issues. HAHA. that song has been stuck in my head for like, forever. :)
Am lazy to show my butt face for floorball trainings. I need some encouragement!
Penang Bridge Marathon. Do you think 28 km could kill?
You Are My Strength. - Hillsong.
Labels: blah, depression, emo, randomness, sad
I love it when it rains. I love the smell of rain. it gets you so refreshed. you feel so good.
and you can sleep very nicely. x)
'rain' was one of the topics given for our english essay writing. no i didn't choose it. cause i had too little time to think of someting bombastic. but my essay would've been something like this:
About a girl, who'd been in the hospital ever since she was young cause she had some illness and it hurt when she moved her lower body. they had tried to carry her on a wheel chair outside before, but it hurt too much that they couldn't take her out off her bed at all. she always looked outside the window of her hospital room, observing what happened on the other side of the white walls she knew too well. sometimes, she would see faint little droplets falling from the sky and was told that it was called rain. she had always longed to feel rain. only being able to stare at it at a distance from her bed to the window, she wanted more than anything else to be able to go outside for once. to see how other kids lived and to feel the soft patter of rain on her skin. to be able to jump in puddles of water and to carry an umbrella all seemed like a faraway dream that would never come to materialization. *blablabla...* so anyhoo, in the end, they sumhow manage to wheel her outside one day, and it so happens to be drizzling. and she lifts up her face to the sky, closes her eyes, and feels the soft rain drops hitting her forehead and cheeks. " Ah, rain. Rain at last. It feels so good. "
BUT. i hate it when it rains and you wanna play outdoor games. especially tennis and captainball. boo.
good night.
Labels: blah, emo, people, randomness, romantic, school, story, unlabelled
i am depressed. very. confused. super. at some point i just felt like dying. but then i quickly scraped that thought away. LOL
i don't know. i feel it will end soon. not the way i would've wanted. i've been so selfish all this while. it's harder than i think. i look at it now and envy them. crap. i am sooo depressed.
advising you guys. was so easy. but now that i've come to the actual situation, i just screwed everything up. what is this. ZOE. you-are-dead-meat.
I miss floorball already.
Labels: adolescence, blah, challenges, crap, depression, disappointed, emo, frustrated, stress
i'm hungry. deal with it.
i hate exams. they suck the life outta me.
CRAP.
i want to play floorball now. :(
Labels: blah, floorball, nonsense, randomness
