Serve God not man.
The vision is greater than the man.
Man will fail you, but NOT, Christ.
I take your word for it. Thanks so much MH. We'll run it together. You promised.
Excited, I am. :)
This is gonna be huge. I'll try my best. KINGDOM MINDSET, I've got it.
I can't wait. With God's guidance I will not fail. Remember our target, next year before trials.
I still can't believe this is happeneing. Avenue.
LORD Jesus, help me reflect You in my life. Thank you for this opportunity.
I wanna serve You, and You alone. :)
It was Him since the beginning. (:
We'll always be a part of you.
Activate. :D
Labels: :D, awesomeness, challenges, christian, floorball, frontliners, glad, God is good, GOD is in control, look up, pride, revelation, sustain, thanks, trust
wahh stress. exams on wednesday, thursday and friday.
KFSPP on saturday. hols start on the 4th too.
our guys team bee-jay bahaya got fourth placing in KFSPP. lost to hamid khan thunderboltz.
SXI lunatics lost to pfs in the finals. super super sad. both in penalties weii.
Labels: adolescence, bee-jay, challenges, disappointed, floorball, sad, school, tough
suddenly. i have writer's block. don't know what to write about. hm.
they say everyone's beautiful in their own way. i believe it's true. caus ei believe God created everyone specially. Amen?
yes i don't feel all that beautiful. well, right now at least.
been busy lately. very. every week seems like there's something on. every week seems hectic.
si ka beh si liau le.
oh wells. signing off now.
choir practise, floorball training, prefect's meeting, national day celebration, kfspp .. EXAMS. darnit.
Labels: adolescence, busy, challenges, stress, stuff
I just realised how depressed I am.
; Just figured out i can't make it for Penang Bridge Marathon this year.
going off somewhere. Sad weih.
; Exams are near. Haven't revised a single thing.
; Afraid I can't perform or contribute to the team during KFSPP.
which is two weeks away. DARN.
; I just realised I sing baddd. lol
; I've been treating some people terribly these few days.
; I haven't putting God first in my life. : Hypocrite.
; Not carrying out my responsibilties as i should.
; I HATE THAT TUMMY. D:<
A tough cookie I am not. I lost it somehow.
Labels: adolescence, blah, busy, challenges, depression, disappointed, frustration, help, stress, sustain
This week has been hectic. So many things have happened. SI (die).
St. John's.
Prefects 2010 / 2011.
Just when I thought I could take everything off and put all this aside,
I lay it all down to take it up again..
This time with bigger and greater responsibility.
Tough?
And just when I was wondering what my week was all about, Jeff put forth the question off service. Service to the LORD. What is my role?
-Still thinking.
I have YOUR strength with me.
Wah, down.
Labels: adolescence, challenges, frustration, God, growing up, help, look up, sustain
I wonder if telling someone you miss them over and over again annoys them. HM.
I miss frontliners. WOO.
Percy's my boyfriend. LOL. why? cause i'm Annabeth. HAHA. No i am NOT Thalia (somebody called me that). She punk. I no like. lol
Grover is funnay. hehehe. And a black. o.o I didn't know that till yesterday. xD
I always thought he was a white. Like one of those whimpey kids at school. Guess i was wrong?
Sayang, thanks for being there yesterday. :)
Thanks guys from school. The support from you all this time has been highly appreciated, even though we didn't win.
Life goes on.
Labels: :) hepi, challenges, disappointed, people, thanks
for a moment i thought i was there already.
but i've come to realise, that it's never that easy. i probably will never get there.
cliche as it is, it's not about how fast you get there, it's about the journey there.
as it hits me, i figure out that that's not the most important thing in life. gotta live for things more worth it. FOCUS. :)
on a different note, i miss floorball. darn.
koperal zoe, coming thru! :D
they will come when it's time.
of add maths and office hours, the hols were not bad-lah.
Labels: adolescence, challenges, confused, random
It's over. Thank you.
" But you put on quite a show, really had me going,
now it's time to go, curtain's finally closing..
that's was quite a show, very entertaining..
but it's over now.
Go on and take that bow. "
i miss you lah.
Labels: challenges, depression, sad, song
i am depressed. very. confused. super. at some point i just felt like dying. but then i quickly scraped that thought away. LOL
i don't know. i feel it will end soon. not the way i would've wanted. i've been so selfish all this while. it's harder than i think. i look at it now and envy them. crap. i am sooo depressed.
advising you guys. was so easy. but now that i've come to the actual situation, i just screwed everything up. what is this. ZOE. you-are-dead-meat.
I miss floorball already.
Labels: adolescence, blah, challenges, crap, depression, disappointed, emo, frustrated, stress
So i was at innebandy's floorball blog. and their 'stand up for the champions' song is so encouraging. you can really see their team spirit when playing. even when they do badly, they pick themselves up. :) something we all gotta learn.
and i came across this:
The 7 laws of victory
Leadership is responsible
Losing is unacceptable
Passion is unquenchable
Creativity is essential
Quitting is unthinkable
Commitment is unquestionable
Victory is inevitable
*copyrighted or not i don't know.
cool right? so true. WOW. imagine if we could all have all these nilai[s] in ourselves.
victory? definitely inevitable. HAHAHA.
I miss floorball so much already.
"every team has their own individual specialities.
observe, and put into practise."
Labels: challenges, floorball, hope, learning
admitted. i've been selfish all this while. yes, there were times when i thought it was pointless. like there was no need. i didn't see the whole picture. it's slowly sinking in. i'm trying, gasping for every bit of awareness. that will open my eyes.
i'm praying God will touch me through floorball, like never before. that a huge revelation will come to me. that i will know my purpose, and when i play, i know what i'm playing for. why i'm there. and i'll stand CONVICTED.
i watched glee, and suddenly realised, when you have feet that can stand by themselves and that function properly, no matter how much you take them for granted, they WORK. imagine if your feet couldn't function at all. and you're in a wheelchair.
i'd stare and regrets will flood me everytime i'm watching a match. cuz i wish i could be there again on court. playing just like the rest. i'd regret not giving my best, 110% on court when i had the chance. wouldn't you feel the same?
you may not have the fastest or swiftest or most well-positioned legs ..
but if you give your 110%,
that could be all the legs you need.
thank you aso. thank you so much for all you've done so far. i've realised how much i've dissapointed the people that put so much effort in this. regrets hit me hard.
i'm trying and it hurts. real bad.
Labels: challenges, confused, floorball, frontliners, GOD is in control, revelation
100th post of this blog .. dedicated to 300. (:
so i am now an official FRONTLINER (last time unofficial frontliner) after months years of bugging from pei li. and... it is great being a part of the frontliner family.
Balik Pulau stadium .. is big. that's what everyone keeps telling me. it's a full-length court. yes sonia, 40m x 20m. so don't expect to tahan for long on the battlefield, without starting to pant and feel your muscles work. and by panting i mean panting very HEAVILY.
reached B.P stadium late. thanks to unforeseen or foreseen circumstances. :D
300 was already doing passes, then stretching and warm-ups. we had some light 'drills', helping our goalie get used to the surroundings.
there we were. at the first PFL div. II match of the season. the much anticipated,
FRONTLINERS vs. FIREBRANDS. epic, no?
after our very semangat spartan cheer lead by assistant coach michael, it was time. a little confidence boost and line one was on the court, on the battleground. two minutes seconds into the game, vincent lim, a firebrands player got sent off. two minutes, for wearing white shorts. not uniform they say. :O
line two then went in, the usual routine. frontliners 300 managed to hold firebrands in the first half of the match at 1-0. something they were very proud of. an achievement, obviously. but as coach kuan yang reminded us, the battle was not over yet. and he was right.
in the second half. it was obvious that 300 was getting tired. physically. and for some, mentally. it was a challenge persevering on court, hearing your leaders giving orders, with stern and unimpressed looks on their faces. a few mistakes, and more goals were conceded. fortunately two weren't counted. 300 was pushed to their limits, and pushed hard they were. even so, kyle and tristan showed excellent spirit, running after every ball, upping their game. the others were trying their best, applying what they had been trained as much as they could in the match.
" stick to the formation! "
" fall back! FALL BACK! "
" go up GO UP! "
" where are you supposed to be zoe? WHERE IS YOUR POSITION? " was ringing in my ears. each time i looked at ky's face and heard his voice, telling me to run for the ball, it gave me reason, reason to run, to hope, to give my 110% on court. not to fail the team.
new as i was, with whatever little experience i had, i hadn't been exposed to the formation before. i wasn't exactly sure of what my role was or what my positions were. i was technically, tactically and physically weak. i followed blindly, running unnecessarily and getting furiously frustrated.
despite all that, i gave my best. played my heart out, reminding myself of how spartans were supposed to play. how they were supposed to go on; against all odds, not giving up no matter what the circumstances were.
finally, when the last whistle blew we breathed a sigh of relief, but for me it was more of anguish. we hadn't won. not that we had lost, NO. the war wasn't over. just that we hadn't won. going back on the court, shaking our opponents' hands, deep down inside, it felt good, but at the same time it was dissapointing. hearing ray gan's voice, thanking firebrands for a good game, it was a great picture of sportsmanship. it taught me sportsmanship. it's not just about the game. the post-match counts. crediting your opponents for their good play. it's all well DESERVED.
quickly collecting our scattered stuff, we headed outside for debriefing. coach gave us his view of the match. told us our weak points and flaws. despite all the hoo-ha, man of the match went on. and our MoM was none other than omprekash, our GK. he the man! :D
and the special once-in-a-lifetime award went to miss sonia frances gopal (3/4 indian, 1/4 chinese .. i dunno where the 'frances' came from though), who turned seventeen that day! happy 17th birthday sonia! hope you had a great one.
being me, i wasn't really satisfied with my performance. you might say, know your limits. i think i quite do. and that certainly wasnt my best.
those who followed ming hwee left earlier, while the rest of us, proceeded back to the stadium to watch the first half of spearheards against trailblazers. alot of confidence, spearhead showed. especially, their GK syahmie, who sempat pose in front of goal post sumore. XD
so that was it. my first no wait, second big match. interesting? i would say so. beneficial, definitely. it tests your mental fitness, it definitely tested mine.
i bet everybody gained something from the first match. the worst is over. the outcome? 4-0. an achievement, i would conclude.
we'll be working our butt off for the next matches. 300 can definitely do better with more training, a little bit more respect to the coaches and kuat-er mental. i promise i'll be giving my best.
nope no pictures. SINCE WE DONT HAVE AN OFFICIAL PHOTOGRAPHER. and i wanna use pei's dslr so badly. xD
3, 2, 1 .. ooo FRONTLINERS!
and now my tummy hurts,
coz i laughed at JASON too much. :D
professional, professional. xD
Labels: 300, awesomeness, challenges, floorball, frontliners, frustration, pride, spartans
Blessed belated new year? *grins sheepishly*
yeah yeah.. i know lah abit very late. been busy mah. :P
so i'm a year older already. that's what january babies get. aww sad, no? we grow old so fast. *shakes head in disapproval* TSK.
i did get alot of birthday wishes though. x]
THANK YOU to those who remembered. :D presents?
the first week of school was FUN. it was. orientation with the form ones was exciting, tiring and challenging. :) but still FUN. xD
so i sorta kicked of the year with:-
- prefects.
- vice pres. of st. john's.
- secretary of music club.
- ajk for floorball.
no i'm not bragging. it's alot of work seriously.
owh, and not forgetting, a whole lot of stress from and FLOORBALL. xD
i had talks with jason and pei li. frontliners it is. i don't know how many times i've said that, but this time's for real. =]
CF. first meeting of the year's tomorrow. God bless the meeting i pray. (:
honestly, my walk with God at just the beginning of the year hasn't been what i would have wanted. the fire keeps growing so dim at times and i start to wonder, what kind of christian am i if i'm not spending time with my creator?
ming hwee asked me the question, " do i have a heart for souls? "
i hesitated before answering. do i really have a heart for souls?
maybe i do. on the surface. thinking about it all, it's opened my eyes. looking at some of my best friends, spending such wonderful momments with them. isn't this what i want in heaven? aren't these the people that mean so much to me? wouldn't i want the best for them? would i want to see them suffer next time? for eternity?
the answer is no. i want my grandparents saved. my bestfriends. even people i don't know. sometimes, my heart aches when i see peole who claim to be christians not living the way they should. and i don't have the right to judge, but i question their salvation sometimes. i really do.
having said that, i check myself. wadabout me? am i living the way i ought to? as a free person not under the bondage of sin anymore? is this liberty too much for me to handle?
"my chains are gone. i've been set free. my God my saviour, has ransomed me.
and like a flood, His mercy rains, unending love, amazing grace. "
so what is my response to this great love? this agape love?
i'm trying slowly, to change. to spend time with God. to listen to Him.
- work has been piling up. homework that is. x] ahh!
a few things i dislike.
- the top part of the floorball stick coming off when you play. annoying weih. xD
- getting demoralised by pei. thanks to my big mouth. (:
- having no mood to play floorball or captainball. like NO WAY. :O yes, it does happen.
i just discovered that i'm best at midfielding. for most games. i'm normally centre or midfield. not usually forward. (defending is a nono because i'm too short. xD )
yeah. 'cuz i can't score. hahah. i mean, i shoot direct balls. and being short is not an advantage when i score that way. they prefer lob balls. which, i'm terrible at.
why? coz i hate lobbing balls. xD partly cuz i can't. haha. they just too slow for me. =D direct balls - my best play.
yes, excuses. x)
okay, enough about games. xD
i have stuff to post, recent one-liners i had. shall post them up another day. BAHAH. you know i never seem to be able to post what i say i will. :D
school tomorrow! cf & floorball! and chem, bio, physics and add maths on the same day. HOW COOL IS THAT?
Labels: :) hepi, challenges, change, God, Jesus, love, new year, skool?, stress, updates
