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Do you ever think about the future?  What do you see?

I see you.  

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I miss texting you just to wish you good morning. :)

Or texting you in the evening just to ask how your day went.  Random texts and 'take care's or 'i love you's don't exist anymore.  

I miss texting you till late at night just so we could accompany each other, or just so that i know you're fine.

I miss texting you.  D:

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Wahh, i miss you like mad.

SPM trials and PMR are taking my loved ones away from me.  D:<

my blog is currently dead. no one's reading.  (just like the dead language song)

GLEE is awesome.

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Was looking back a some old posts. was close to tears yet again.  Nevermindforgetit.

Me and my heart we got issues.  HAHA.  that song has been stuck in my head for like, forever.  :)

Am lazy to  show my butt face for floorball trainings.  I need some encouragement!  
Penang Bridge Marathon.  Do you think 28 km could kill?

You Are My Strength. - Hillsong.

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Suddenly, I don't feel like it anymore.  

Pretending it never happened.  Like how you do it best.

Get outta ma mind.

ONE more day.

Pray for what God has impressed on your heart.  

Phoenix.

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Pixie Lott - If I Changed.

*Spoken with brittish accent.  :)
- What's the matter with you, you seem so sad? Didn't he take you to the movies? 
- I just don't get it.. He says I'm not this enough, he says I'm not that enough.. Why can't he just like me the way I am? 

Chorus: 
If I changed for you, would you like me, like me more? 
If I came to you, would it be different, than before.. 

Verse 1: 
Don't wanna let get go but you've got to know,
what you're asking o me is impossible,
it's up to you if you want to see this through and take me as I am. 
(Do it do it do it my way) Take me as I am (Do it do it do it my way) 

Chorus: 
If I changed for you, would you like me, like me more? 
If I came to you, would it be different, than before.. 

Verse 2: 
If I did it your way, you should say I would,
it wouldn't be me and you'll see me unhappy,
someday you should understand the way I am.. and take my way. 
(Do it do it do it my way) And do it my way (Do it do it do it my way) 

Bridge: 
So if changed for you,
it wouldn't be good so I guess I should ..
Change you.. 
(Do it do it do it my way) Changeeeeee you!
- Cos I'm gonna replace ya baby (Do it do it do it my way) 

I Cant hate you any longer baby - This mess wont make are life stronger .. No No No No No gotta move on, with or without you .. yeahhhh.. 

Chorus: 
If I changed for you, would you like me, like me more? 
If I came to you, would it be different, than before.. 

(Do it do it do it my way) My way baby (Do it do it do it my way)

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I love it when it rains. I love the smell of rain. it gets you so refreshed.  you feel so good. 

and you can sleep very nicely.  x)

'rain' was one of the topics given for our english essay writing.  no i didn't choose it. cause i had too little time to think of someting bombastic.  but my essay would've been something like this:

About a girl, who'd been in the hospital ever since she was young cause she had some illness and it hurt when she moved her lower body. they had tried to carry her on a wheel chair outside before, but it hurt too much that they couldn't take her out off her bed at all. she always looked outside the window of her hospital room, observing what happened on the other side of the white walls she knew too well.  sometimes, she would see faint little droplets falling from the sky and was told that it was called rain. she had always longed to feel rain.  only being able to stare at it at a distance from her bed to the window, she wanted more than anything else to be able to go outside for once.  to see how other kids lived and to feel the soft patter of rain on her skin.  to be able to jump in puddles of water and to carry an umbrella all seemed like a faraway dream that would never come to materialization.  *blablabla...*     so anyhoo, in the end, they sumhow manage to wheel her outside one day, and it so happens to be drizzling.  and she lifts up her face to the sky, closes her eyes, and feels the soft rain drops hitting her forehead and cheeks. " Ah, rain.  Rain at last.  It feels so good. "

BUT. i hate it when it rains and you wanna play outdoor games.  especially tennis and captainball.   boo.

good night.

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i am depressed. very. confused. super.  at some point i just felt like dying. but then i quickly scraped that thought away. LOL

i don't know. i feel it will end soon.  not the way i would've wanted. i've been so selfish all this while.  it's harder than i think.  i look at it now and envy them.  crap. i am sooo depressed. 

advising you guys. was so easy.  but now that i've come to the actual situation, i just screwed everything up.  what is this.  ZOE.  you-are-dead-meat.

I miss floorball already.

Labels: adolescence, blah, challenges, crap, depression, disappointed, emo, frustrated, stress

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what do you do when you feel like crying?

when push-ups, sit-ups and lifting dumbbells don't cure your hurt. 
and when you badly need a shoulder to cry on and it seems like no one's there.

when you've fallen down so hard and you feel as if the rest of the world has given up on you?

you smile.
"positive energy don't run in my veins no more."

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I finally have to face it. sooner or later. i pick now. 

the big question is ..

IS floorball taking me away from God?  and my studies?

it's so hard to bring yourself to acknowledge that something so huge in your life is finally taking its toll on you. 

since the time i first got introduced to floorball, it's been close to half a year.  i don't know, i somehow didn't really have a flair for floorball neither did i have a liking for it immediately.  slowly, after constant urging from pei li and aso, i finally made it.  27th february was my first frontliners training.  it was awesome.  

sure.  i love 300 with all my heart.  that i cannot deny. i love the little kids. their like family.  but .. the sport?  i feel so guilty saying this but, 1). i don't htink i'll go far.  2). i've tonned down so much. not an advantage no more.  3). it's tkaing me away from the most important things in one's life.

if ever anything replaces my main love, or becomes top priority apart from God, then that thing has to go.  i say this not because i live it, because i know it's the right thing to do.  i'm not righteous, i don't have a clean record, nor am i perfect.  but the matter of fact is, God comes first.  when i die, it's not floorball i'm gonna take with me.  that's not what's gonna get me to heaven.  

truly guilty now.  HONEST.  kuan yang, if you happen to read this. i know, my bad. i don't know. i guess it was pressure?  i'm sorryyyy. i need time ot sort stuff out.  might be taking a break from floorball to get my priorities straight. 

this stinks. floorball was the main thing i had, considering i don't have a boyf and all.
but right, I DON'T KNOW NOW.  geez i failed. blah.

gotta take a breather. set things right.  if i don't have floorball, honestly speaking, i won't die.  i won't go to hell.  but if i don't have God, my creator,  how can i live a single day?

dilemma-ed. gone.  exams coming.  psshttt.  DIE. 

Labels: confused, depression, disappointed, emo, faith, floorball, frustration, God, sad