i am depressed. very. confused. super.  at some point i just felt like dying. but then i quickly scraped that thought away. LOL

i don't know. i feel it will end soon.  not the way i would've wanted. i've been so selfish all this while.  it's harder than i think.  i look at it now and envy them.  crap. i am sooo depressed. 

advising you guys. was so easy.  but now that i've come to the actual situation, i just screwed everything up.  what is this.  ZOE.  you-are-dead-meat.

I miss floorball already.

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title sound depressing to you? yess. but i'm talking about ankles. hahah

yess. i have very weak ankles. VERY. == 

i totally sprained it thrice in two weeks. and yet again last week cause it gave way during training. that's the right ankle.  and guess what?  i over-stretched some ligament yesterday during the friendly. that's the left ankle.   o.o  i have no idea how.  maybe it's the shoes? 

crap. so now i have both ankles painful.  how am i gonna survive.  O.O

can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?

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yeah. it's almost 1 am in the morning. and i'm still on. 

crap. depression is creeping in again. ugh. 

bible camp seems so near yet so far. and i want both at once. 

baby, some tears never dry.

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Been extremely lazy to blog. yes i have. smack me, i give you the right to. xD  

updates.

SUKPEN. was the bomb. If ya'll don't already know, we went for sukpen and represented BJ.  :D

yes, newcomers, with exceptions. li pei, boey, sonia, eureka and lisa. the rest were very new.  :)

we got into the semis, lost to innebandy and ztec (again).  so we got fourth lah.  still, which was very good?  but also cause the only other very good team in our group was ztec, and we had pei and boey. if not, we couldn't have gotten that far. 

yes, it was fantastic. met eulene and sarah there.  had a great time going crazy with them.  =]

a million thanks to chris and penny, team BJ's coaches for helping us and being there to give support and encourgement. :)

to pei li, sonia, boey, eureka and lisa. for helping to bring our team up.

to sharon, eulene, sarah and beverly for providing cheer when we were tired. 

congrats to to li pei, who got the award for being the all-star defender or something. greaaaat.  xD

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moving on..

BIBLE CAMP is like, FIVE DAYS AWAY!!  bible camp!! bible camp!!  lol.

abit high now. this year i promise you, is going to be a blast. very close, alot of bonding and FUN. i won't let anything ruin it. please no arguments again. like last year.  

GOD is gonna be with us!  I pray that He will touch every camper there. That we'll learn and grow. totally.  i can't waitttt. :D

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made up my mind. FRONTLINERS it is. next year. i've gotta cut down on other activities if i'm gonna commit.  great. *cries*

just when i thought i was high and could go even higher, depression brings me down. 
seriously, i think alot of people are gonna die of depression one day.   -.-

i'm here for you man. dude, don't dieeeee. 

you try to look happy,
so that the one depressed doesn't become even more depressed.
but deep down inside, you feel exactly the same way.

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i miss you already. i can't wait till 20 lah. it's too long.
can i start now? :D  didn't know i wouldn't be able to wait though. wanna go jog? xD

did you ever feel that way in the first place?
or were those JUST WORDS?

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been really emo lately. haha. what is the world coming to? lol. yes, the birthday post(s) shall be coming up real soon. :D

carrie underwood's ever ever after is nice. :)

last night. had some serious issues. well, somehow you are the one who stands firm. i waver. and that's why, i'm glad. and i love you loads. =)

mm... i wanna keluar! go queens! or something! ah! lol.. or go play captainball or some game. staying at home amat the boring lah. :]  

oh yeah, cleaned my room that day. now my table is DUST FREE. *grins*  for now only lah. hees.

i love you i love you i love you!  *huggs*

if you don't already know, i give out free hugs and random 'i love you's 

(:  they're my trademarks. yay?

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ugh. BM paper was HARD. i'm so scared it'll be like, 6As 1B.. or maybe 5As  2Bs (including science heh)

ahh. but nevemind, whatever the outcome, i know GOD is in control. so, i've done my best, and yes, HE will do the rest. dapat B pun B lah. =)  

he allowed it so yeah. :D

ahaaa. thank you to all those who have wished me well for the big exam. =D  i shall try my very best. 

._____.

to the other PMR candidates, ALL THE VERY BEST! gambateh! jia you! haha.. *i knoeeee..BM was harddd...*

'til whenever..

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good news people, CHELSEA 2 - LIVERPOOL 0

actually i feel sad for liver. have no idea why but lol. hah.

PMR in 2 days! gambateh people! not gointa skool tomorrow. coz there ain't nuthin to do there. :D 

floorball after peeemare! grr. i'm thinking contacts. scared tak nampak the ball. -.- HAHAHA

9 more days to freedom. i'm actually scared that i have nuthin to do after the exam. like waa..? weird huh. x]  oh well..

after PMR, it's gonna be me, skool, friends? outings, and EXERCISE. 

yes exercise. you heard me correctly. jogging (HOPEFULLY i can keep it up), crunches, sit-ups (what's the diff?), butt exercises (HAHA) and pumping. LOL. imma get big hands from pumping. =.=

my crap of the day. =)

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i don't like what you do to me. bringing me down. NO. sorry for ignoring you, but yeah. thanks neways. HEH.

PMR in 5 days. currently on HIATUS. (duhh)   :]

EMO-ed. MAD. feeling STUPID. distant from GOD. stressed. owh well, *shrugs* pry for me yeah? PMRRRRR. :D  

birthday posts and tributes / wishes, after the big exam. sorry lah. my fault i know. =]

who ever you are, *huggs*. i needed that. =D

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i wanna i wanna i wanna CRY.. do you wanna cry with me too? coz i jus found out that recess revolution was da BOMB. =___= totally. grr

camy went, dan went yean went, xuan went.. and most of all, MELISSA TEOH AND RACHEL TEE WENT!! ahhhhh *screams her head off* macha... i wana cry dei. not only that, about a million other ppl went. like, ughh. sheesh. shud've listened to boey in the beginning. crap lah wei. gona die. ah. mind the rants. -.-

so yeah, next time, imma pay attention. woo, yesterday still lingers in my mind. grr, hopefully monday or tuesday boleh keluar lagih. tapi dan tak dak kat rumah. nvm. =) we go jalan. nyahaha..

i wanna go for the practise for GLO today larh. next week, they goin glo to present. emmie, jezron, steph lee,  all of 'em gonna be there, i'm gona be stuck at home. sheesh. aw shucks. .___.  

i just finished talking to MELISSA TEOH. *huggies*

itu saja untuk rants saya pada pagi ini. xD mungkin akan update lagi today. really i tell you, update-blog-to-much-syndrome. *smirks at justin*  :D

signing out.

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