Monday, September 22, 2014
What Is Love?
Ever know how you get that really intense feeling? Like the type that surges all over you, all through your whole body? The really frequent ones? Basically every time you see someone who really loves you look at you with such loving eyes and a really, really, sheepish, unknowingly romanticly sweet smile? The crooked type which makes him look really goofy and you feel all warm and fuzzy all over before feeling too shy to keep staring that you have to look away?
Really? Is it just me? Hm
I feel similar when my mother smiles at me through Skype/Google hangout when I see her face on my blurry phone screen.
These intense feelings may not be common to everyone. I've come to realise that empathy is not a common trait in everyone, with varying levels felt by each person.
And empathy has both its good and bad sides.
I personally get them ever so often nowadays. All it takes is for me to look at my boyfriend sit across from me doing his work, stop for a split second to smile at me and I can feel the tears welling up in my little heart.
I just need to see my mother smile or laugh on the video call and I could cry a river because I miss her so much.
I just need to see or hear something really kind or loving done by a church friend to another, because of the massive impact of the gospel on the other person and I feel like breaking down.
Most of all, every time I think or talk to someone about how Jesus could sacrifice his life, his all then die for the sins of the world, specifically my own sins to redeem me from death to life into his glorious kingdom, I can almost immediately feel the tears welling up in my eyes.
I don't think this is just a symptom of an extremely emotional or neurotic person.
I don't even think it's because of the massive empathy that I supposedly have.
I think this is a response of a sinner. A sinner who understands the grace given so freely, so generously and so lovingly by her LORD and Saviour, Jesus Christ. A sinner who still struggles wih understanding why an all-powerful, all-knowing God would come down to take on human flesh and die for her sins.
A redeemed sinner. A new-living Christian. A soul who yearns for her Saviour's kingdom come.
This is mercy, this is justice.
This is grace.
This is love.
GOD is in control, 12:11 AM.
